Life is fundamentally confusing for all of us, so you are definitely not alone in this spiritual and psychological search for your true place in this world. We all do that and we constantly find ourselves at crossroads every now and then.

From my experience, I can tell that it's possible to get help outside of the formal mental health system. I don't know about all the options in your country, but here I sought help from different practitioners such as body workers a.k.a massage therapists, holistic doctors, medical intuitives. Yoga classes have been helpful every once in a while. Meditations help me to get in a state of balance that is essential for getting a better sense of where to go in life. I also find solace in reading about various subjects that interest me: spirituality, history, biographies of famous people, mysticism, quantum theories and anything that reminds me of the fact that this physical dimension of our life is not where the most important stuff is happening :-). I found it paramount to develop my attunement to my intuitive guide in order to navigate through the challenges and confusion. Your inner guidance system is always with you even when no one else is. This is your core. If you are well connected to it, it will help you find the right people and the right environments for you to grow and develop. You will make mistakes along the way and it's okay. If you stay committed to maintaining your connection with your inner guide, you'll find your way through this life.