Hello TimeBombGage, welcome to Psych Central.

I'm so sorry to hear of your massive loss. Grief is so hard but allow yourself to grieve. It has only been a few weeks since his passing so it is natural that it is still so raw. There is no time limit on grief and the greater the bond, the longer it takes. You will never ever forget him! Remember the good times and talk as much as you need about it. Please go and see your doctor if you are not sleeping or feel you need support/medication.