Hi its twofaces.

I actually failed my nursing placement in emergency department on monday. This was the final placement before becoming a nurse, and I was a week off from graduation (in second semester in the final year).

At first I accepted it well. The facilitator told me that I did not make any serious mistakes or stepped outside my boundary. It was just that my anxiety gets me so often in this emergency environment that I can't function properly.

I did not fail the course, and it is currently delayed until I finish my next placement.

Now the problem though.. Is that after few days, I see myself not coping with it well. I don't want to go outside anymore, and seeing my friends in placement finishing it and posting for celebrations in facebook kinda devastated me.

I have appointment with the university coordinator of nursing next week, counsellor appointment on next tuesday, and psychologist appointment on next friday.

This is my first 'big' failure ever since failing math in my seventh grade. I passed everything up to now and did well on my other placements... This is also probably one of the reasons why this failure is hitting me hard.