My T asked me this today completely out of the blue I felt. We have made good progress over the last few months and today we were starting to broach a subject I've had trouble addressing with him in the past (sex). I was feeling quite comfortable opening up for the first time when he suddenly changed the subject to our general progress and asked me if I felt stuck.
I told him that I interpreted that to mean he felt we were stuck and he paused and said I was wrong to interpret it that way and he was just 'checking in'.
I pointed out the terrible timing (just as I was making myself vulnerable) and he stopped again and said he would have to ponder that one, maybe it was 'his stuff' with the Christmas break coming up.
I just feel all over the place now. I felt very defensive and couldn't even bring myself to say 'no I don't feel stuck' because after what he said I felt like maybe I am stuck and I'm just completely missing it.
Why would he say that? And word it in such a negative way? I am questioning whether we are ever on the same page at all. Could it be to do with the topic we were discussing?
I dissociated on the way home for the first time in ages.