I'm going to try and be productive tray and hopefully that will brighten my day, I'm not sure if it will, but as long as I don't sleep today I'll be good, I just have to find ways of filling up my time so I don't have to think about being depressed, but it's so overwhelming. Yesterday was a bad day, but hopefully today will be better, that's what I'm trying to go for today. No Netflix no sleeping, but then what else is there to do ? All I feel is terrible. I'll go for a run maybe then a coffee shop to not isolate myself and read ? I do have a lot of books on my list to read, so maybe that's my plan today, but all I feel like is crying. But I will try hard to not give up.