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Old Dec 08, 2014, 10:39 AM
LaraHugs LaraHugs is offline
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Originally Posted by irgendwie View Post

I have no one in my family to support me and never will. I have no friends left, so I'm basically alone.

I can't say anything at school because nothing will get changed; in fact, it would probably get worse.


You are never alone. It may seem like it now, but, it's not true. You are alone from the people you expect to be there for you ... but, not totally alone.

I think that the real issue here is expectancy. Your parents are expecting you to act/behave a certain way, just as you are expecting others to act a certain way. You even said the word, "changed" when describing how you perceived the reception of your feelings to school.

I know it's hard to realize right now, but, people are really powerful. People have the ability to do or be anything or anyone. They really do. And right now, your parents need you to be strong for them, because they are faltering. They had these expectations of how their child was going to grow up, and who you were going to be ... and you blew all of that out of the water.

I am in now way siding with them, nor you. Rather, I am saying that you are stronger than them right now, because you were able to break through these chains of expectancy. But, they cannot yet.

Yet !!!!!!!!!!!

Have you ever heard the adage: you can't teach an old dog new tricks

Well, it's true. You can't. They love you, they really do. It just takes older people much longer to get over themselves, than it does younger people. One day, you're going to look back on all this and be proud of yourself that you had the courage and strength to carry their baggage for them, while they came around and got a grip on themselves.

My advise to you is to be patient for a while. Don't fight with them, don't argue with them. Remain calm with them. Let them vent all of this out, let them get it all out of their system so that they are able to realize that you are still you, and that you will always be their loving child.

You can be strong to do that. I know you can. One day, you all are going to sit around the dinner table laughing about how you were the grown up here, and how you had to teach them courage.

I promise you, it's worth it. I am a 55 year old woman with a bi-sexual son. And trust me, it took a very long time for me to wrap my mind around this fact about him. And for those months, he had to be the grown up, while I went through all kinds of mental and emotional outbursts.

You love them, and they love you .... you have the ability to help them get through this. They're afraid. Just as you were/are afraid. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I promise you that.