</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
a few excerpts from the dream
I didn't tell anyone I was going to see him.

I tell my T if anyone inquiries about he and I we are to deny, deny, deny...I tell him that I'll take care of him and protect him always.

my husband, dad, and my dad's wife all confront me and say they know what I'm up to. They know what my T is up to...they had run a background check on my T, and he has criminal history (drug related) and they inform me I can no longer see him and are reporting him.

Of course, they accuse me of having an affair with him and I lie and say I would never do that

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">
To me, a strong theme running through the dream is that you are doing this secretive, forbidden thing with your T, and you must keep it hidden because it is wrong. In the end, in fact, your T is exposed for his "criminal" activities, and you are punished for having been involved with him. Here's my interpretation. You place tremendous value on your relationship with your therapist. It is an intimate, important relationship in your life, and perhaps it is just this sort of relationship you have been searching for. It's so good in fact that you feel you don't deserve it, and therefore it will get taken away from you. So to me the main points are 1) you have a great relationship with your T, very intimate, 2) you feel you don't deserve it and have to keep it hidden because it is "wrong" (you should be having this type of intimacy with others in your life, not a T) and if exposed, it will be taken away from you. (I see the kissing part as just a signifier of intimacy.)