I've been super honest w/my T & telling her about my affair I'm having while married. I think details are immaterial to my question.

Today was the third session in a row where she told me her opinion that basically I'm in the wrong & need to fix it. This is her opinion which I already said I know where she stands. I asked her if she would discontinue seeing me if I didn't stop & she said no.

I have many "parts" in my DDNOS system. My biggest part sat there in silence seething w/anger that I was being judged for my actions when I didn't ask for her opinion. I've never been so angry @ her!

I also have a part that feels like if I read between the lines I'm being called a slut & piece of trash. She does not have to keep telling me what her superior opinion is. I already feel bad enough about myself for doing this in the first place!

I of course have a part that says she's right. What am I going to achieve from all this? When am I going to either stop or confess to my family? She's starting to steer me down the correct path.

Another part feels like she's sentencing me to death. That before I started cheating I was in a very dangerous place & constantly suicidal. Now I actually have a reason to get out of bed. To concern myself w/ what I look like. To feel good about myself. If I give this up I give up my will to live. My T is very aware of this situation. But if she's so aware why is she pointing me in that direction?

So my question is does my T have a right to, I feel, push her moral standard onto me? If all we're going to talk about is how my cheating is going to blow up in my face...I'd rather not here it.
I've done a great deal of thinking esp how this effects my family & H. I'm not ignorant & really don't want a comment posted from anyone telling me what a terrible person I am. I have enough evil voices in my head. Thank you.