For me, it was a means to an end. The first mr hankster told me the only reason he would ever divorce me was if i were unfaithful. So pretty much to save my butt from getting kicked and to just not be miserable anymore and to regain control of my life, i went outside my marriage one time.

I thought it was telling that mr h's two questions were: 1. What lie did i tell him to sneak out of the house? I didnt have to lie, most weekends he went out with his friends and left me home alone. He never knew i was gone. 2. Which one of his friends betrayed him? I was like what? I had my own friends you idiot.

Anyway, not one of my prouder moments, but i did what i had to do. Thats whats important.