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Originally Posted by baseline
I haven't talked about it yet. I am too embarrassed to bring it up. I am supposed to be doing better. I feel guilty that there is so much I should be grateful for and I just feel scared/afraid most of the time. There are so many other of his patients that are worse off. I know this defeats the purpose of therapy but I feel undeserving.
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I sometimes do that to myself. Devalue my trauma experience by saying it was not as bad as someone else s. But that is not fair to me or my system. Our trauma was bad enough for us to dissociate. I will not devalue us as though we are not worth of having a trauma free life. That is how I look at it. I will still start to have that thought, but stop myself. I tell myself that what happened to us was important to us and that is what counts for us. I feel bad that others have suffered but that does not mean that my suffering should be viewed by me as being less important. Your trauma is important and was painful for you. That is what is important to hold on to working through issues in therapy. At least that is what I think. Take care of yourself.