Hopeful, lol :-) Well, it was not that long ago mine would have been in the 100's or higher (thankfully I have never touched drugs so that has helped greatly). But when I consider that I am a survivor of severe childhood sexual abuse (from age 2 1/2 - 10) and was labled with borderline personality disorder when I was 26 (11 yrs ago) , well I answered this test honesty and I was surprised by the score.

I love this site because it helps so many people out who are going through so much. I've learned that I can never know what anyone else is going through because each person is unique. But I still desire deeply to be there for others as I am able to be without it being a poison to my own health.

For me, my sanity turn around has taken years of therapy, which I have not been to now in 7 yrs. And I own my sanity to both my own very hard work and to my T who is a wonderful human. Also to my experience of Zen, which has allowed me to see outside of myself while seeing my true nature and center in honesty.

I posted my score because I hope that others will see that sanity is not just a pie in the sky dream. I know for myself the anguish of a tortured mind. I was told by some people that I would never be normal. Now I have others come to me asking "Are you really as happy as you appear?" and my honest answer is "Yes."

Not all days are perfect. I don't always remember to do what I need to do to keep my mind free from the poison of stress, anger, guilt, and resentment. But I am finding that by just living each day with awareness of the truth of who I am, the past that has formed my road, the strength I have been given by nature, and the hands of so many friends who are waiting around each corner - many who are strangers, well sanity is a welcome change of scenery.