I'm just sick of everything. I want someone, anyone, to shoot me straight between the eyes. I don't understand what makes me feel this way. There are no outside traumas like abuse, bullying, etc. that should cause me to feel this way. I try to see the school counselor but I never end up going because I feel like a waste of his time. It's impossible for me to talk to anyone about it in person. I self harm frequently but not because it feels good like a way to cope with stress but because I deserve it. I don't know anymore. My brain is just so confusing. Does there have to be something traumatic causing this? Am I just being ridiculous? Sorry for posting crap like this I just don't know what to do...