Hi Panda,
I feel you. I used to be the exact same way in high school, just dreading it and hating every minute while I was there. I know what it feels like to not be able to pull up the energy.
I'm not a doctor, so I have no right to diagnose you, but it sounds like you're dealing with a severe case of depression. I know how that feels.
Do you have a therapist or psychiatrist? Is there anyone you trust enough to talk to about the things you've said here? You don't sound lazy or stupid at all; you sound like you're dealing with some tough emotional stuff that really needs to be addressed by a doctor or therapist. How is your relationship with your parents? I recommend talking to them about how you're feeling, and then (if you want) telling them you think you'd benefit from having a counselor.
Having someone to listen to me was my greatest part of high school; I found an amazing therapist, who I still have today, and it really helped me through those rough parts.
Please take care
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