hey Bipolartist, yeah it is a nightmare :c good that you found good therapist, sadly I don't have that much of luck :/ still looking for T but for insurance I can wait for ages.. and actually this forum is a better therapy for me than I had before, face2face. Yeah my psychiatrist is chillout type of guy, I think he doesn't take everything serious, even once he said to me 'find a boyfriend, job and move out, and ur problems are solved'.. yeaaah right -.- hmm I never had this type of test, only got one for depression, 1 A4 page.. it was very useless imo, because sometimes i felt ok, sometimes like typical depressed person so depends of current moment my answers would be totally different :/
I totally feel like that so often :c possessed, haunted.. and have this creepy thoughts in my mind, not only feelings..
I wrote in dissociation forum, and still I'm not sure if it's this or real evil something :s I thought lately about talking with priest online but it creeps me out, I passed out on religion lesson at school, had panic attacks in church so I'm scared of going there, scared of religion in general :s so no idea how I will survive Christmas x.x even hearing about Christmas already makes me nervous :/
Eh I try to stop thinking about it right now, I'm totally disconnected, unreal today already, and like someone would stand behind me :/

btw strange coincidence, I thought about van gogh lately and you have this avatar