we are only supposed to have 2 sessions anyway (terminating by the end of the year and supposed to start with a new T then)... I called today to leave T a message asking to see her this week because I'm struggling. It was evident that I am her only client there. I'm really uncomfortable with any "special" status, regardless of the motivations (even if it's because they may be short on available clinicians till the new year). It's complicated by the emotional reactions I have to this T (I react to her like I do to my abusers. It's probably what's increasing my fear around this arrangement)... I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to be ungrateful, but I can't handle the added emotional rollercoaster anymore...