I am not Schizoaffective I do not have Aspergers Syndrome. I have never had a delusion or a paranoid or psychotic episode. I wanted to have an excuse for self inflicted emotional pain that simply comes with life and an excuse for behavior that hurt others. When the guilt would on occasion catch up with me I grew scared and guilty and chalked it up to "unnecessary guilt" I am a liar and for multiple reasons decided to keep this up.