It's a tough situation.
You had your "independence" and then it was ripped away from you.
So you're acting out in a way that shows your parents how displeased you are.
But ask yourself this: how is this working for me? It's not, is it, otherwise you would not have posted here.
You were branching out and experimenting with new things. Around your age this can and does occur and people will try what does and does not work for them.
Incidentally I'm not sure if you're aware but studies have linked marihuana use in teenagers with depression.
There's also the view that if you smoke dope it leads to other drugs. Personally, I'm not so sure about that. It probably depends more on social circumstances and peers you associate with that engage in activities that you do.
I get you're mad with your parents.
I had a very turmulous time in my teenage years with my parents. Growing up I always thought they practically tried to stop me from doing anything. And I'd get angry at that. Like you are right now.
But now things are different for me.
I've smoked pot. When I was at university. I'd never tell my kids that. For me it was so occasional. Just didn't agree with me. It caused extreme anxiety and paranoia so I just couldn't do it.
If I found out one day that my kids were doing it, I'd go nuts. Double standards I know. But I love my kids and I wou want to see them engage in any kind of behavior that could jeopardize them in the long run.
I'm sorry you're so angry with your parents.
But somehow or other I know this phase will pass.
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