Happy belated birthday!

Birthdays are weird things. I have two minds about mine. On the one hand part of me wants to be showered with love and affection and attention, but on the other hand I know I would probably be mortified and extremely uncomfortable if that actually happened

I had a birthday last month and I spent that morning crying and wishing I had never been born, and just generally ruminating on all my perceived mistakes and failures. Then I went to a coffeeshop for a little while, then I went to confession and to Mass, then back to the coffeeshop. Not the best birthday ever, but not the worst either.

The worst birthday I ever had was the one where my ex broke up with me. To make matters worse she broke up with me via a birthday card! It said, "I hope you have a great birthday and do something special for yourself. I don't want to be your girlfriend anymore."

I can laugh about it now.