Hello lovelies,

I'm feeling really down today. I came off of my antidepressants just over half a year ago when we decided to start trying for a baby. I've been on them on and off for 5, nearly 6 years since I was 14/15, and having to face the possibility that I might never leave my depression completely behind. Now it's been 6 months and I've been doing really well, but I'm getting so down that I'm not pregnant yet, and at 20 I thought I'd be at my best health and that it would happen really quickly. I get so upset about it, and I know that it can take time I just can't help it when another month has passed and nothing.

I'm trying so hard not to let it trigger me back into depression, because if I get depressed again my partner will say that I'm not ready for a baby and there is nothing in the world I have wanted more. I just don't understand why it hasn't happened yet, and now I'm getting paranoid that there's something wrong with me - what if we are one of those couples who goes years and years and it never happens.

I know that me getting so upset about it can't be helping, and that realistically it's still not been that long but to me it feels like forever and it upsets me more every time. I hear of people getting pregnant by accident, and here I am after over half a year and nothing has happened. I feel like my partner is being put off of trying because he doesn't want me to get upset about it, and it's taking all the fun and happiness out of it. This was supposed to be a happy and exciting experience but now it's just turned miserable and anxious all the time.

How long did it take any of you to conceive and did any of you feel this way? Is it really normal for it to take this long?

J x