you sound like you are really going to be facing a challenge. the important thing is to find the right nutritionist. it is their job to come up with a meal plan for you so ask your dr for a referral. google nutritionist in your area and interview them over the phone asking if they specialize in diabetes care and tell them the specifics of what you want and only go to the one that sounds confident in helping you. talk to your doc about your concern about postpartem depression. it may be wise to take antidepressants as a preventative measure until you know you are ok. i was really concerned about having kids, i thought i would abuse them as i was abused. so i didnt do the things that happened to me. my kids came out ok. good luck.