I also have long episodes according to season. I get manic in the Spring and depressed most of the rest of the year. The high's are great -- you described them well. I'm on my own so the reckless spending can be ruinous -- the good feelings of mania are not worth it.

Hopefully, you will get fixed up on meds and everything will be fine. I still have breakthrough episodes on meds, but some people respond to them better. They help, tho, don't get me wrong. Best of luck! Welcome to the forum!