So my husband is out of town and i'm not really sure how to take care of myself without him here. the truth is, he keeps me on track to eat, shower, get out of the house, etc. i rely so much on him, that when he is gone, i don't know what to do with myself. i've only eaten whats in the house, along with drinking which i normally dont do, the days feel so long. i'm a grown woman and don't know how to take care of myself when alone. i have too much social anxiety to leave the house. it's a battle to go to the grocery to get food, let alone decide what to eat. and i feel ashamed of these facts.
I feel like i've lost my identity to this disorder. things i used to like don't define me anymore, and when i'm forced to be alone i can't help but look at these realities..that i'm not the same person because of this bp. all that is left is a shell filled with anxieties, depression, and fear.
am i the only one that feels this way?