I am wondering if anyone else faces this problem. The mental health team keep asking what help I need and I simply cannot think of what would help.

It is pretty clear that nothing is going to get better. I have tried so many things like not drinking, i exercise. It was suggested I lose weight So I lost a ton. At one point they said dbt is the answer after three years I managed to get 6 months. Not saying that wasn't helpful it was especially for my family. Basically if depressed they say suck it up because anti depressants have made me manic or suicidal. I have had therapy and worked hard.

I still find myself here and with no light insight.. I could ask the doctor for new meds but he didn't even know what I was on and my dosages last time I even had to go and get him from town to my place because he couldn't get his gps to work. Even though he had been to my place before. He's a nice guy but I do wonder.

I know there is only good intent to help me but I feel like no one can. I am aware I have to help myself. I'm kind of done with it all.

What should I be asking? I might have a couple of months left before physically my body won't be able to function anymore. Maybe I don't want help because I'm so ready to leave this behind.
They say do something for you. I'm not sure what that means I feel guilty every time I sit down.
So I must be missing something vital. Please enlighten me. Currently everybody around me seems to be raping my thoughts.