I went on symbyax (prozac + zyprexa) in August of 2012. It was great;for the first time in years, I had no depression. It was all gone! Looking back, I think I was hypomanic, but I didn't recognize it then and I didn't care. It hurt my grades because I was too busy experiencing everything life had to offer to study.

In Jan 2013, I went to Rome, and we all know how that went. I got manic/mixed, delusional, and was sent home. I was seriously suicidal.

In December of 2013, I was agitated. I was hallucinating and extremely distressed. My doctor told me to double the zyprexa. The thing is that the zyprexa and prozac were in the same pill, so I doubled the prozac too.

The hallucinations didn't go away; in fact, they increased dramatically in frequency. I started getting suicidal whenever anything slightly stressful happened. It was how I coped with rejection, anxiety, minor sadness, everything. I started having mixed states from hell, and became very irritable, at times even rageful.

I think this is part of the reason why my t thinks I could be borderline. The irritability, the chronic suicidality, the intense and rapid cycling...it is not me. It is from the prozac.

I've been off of prozac for two months now, and these symptoms still haven't gone away.

Anyone else have an awful reaction to an SSRI?