You're not going to want to hear this but I think you need both a new T and new pdoc. It sounds like you are
completely misunderstood by those two. If you think you are BP1 you sure don't need to go through another manic spell. And your T should be supporting you if you have shared with her your story.

I'm really sorry you're going through all this. I hope things get better quickly.

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