Well, the beginning def sounds like hypomania, like, to a T! And obvs the depression sounds like depression. The rest of it could all be folded in as generally part of bipolar symptoms, etc... The thing with BP though is the pattern. It would be the defining characteristic of your life in some way, that there were these high periods, and then these low periods. I am rapid cycling, so I can begin a day racing, and end with suicidal ideation and extreme depression, but in my case neither state will last very long. But others will go through long periods of hypomania and mania, and long periods of mixed moods, and long depressions, it really depends. There will also be normative phases between episodes, what cannot change is that you are in some way cycling through these things. Like if you were just super high once, and then got depressed, and that's it? If you can't look back at your life and see many of the events of your life as having something to do with a cycle of extreme highs and lows, then perhaps there is just something going on in your life that has caused this. But if there is a sense of a high to low and back cycle that sort of lacks causality (though may be triggered), but that is always going on, perhaps you have suddenly ended relationships while low, and then, as if waking up from a dream, wondered why you did so, or decided to quit school and go on a cross country trip, and then half way across the country come down and wonder what has gotten into you, I mean those are just examples, it could be anything, but this quality of moods controlling your life, instead of things in your life leading to certain moods, then yes, maybe you are bipolar.
Sorry for that insane run on sentence, but I hope you see what I mean?!
Soon...
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Originally Posted by VeggieGirl1993
Hi everyone,
i have just signed up as i want to gain insight into bipolar disorder while i am waiting for an assessment/diagnosis. My GP thinks i am bipolar but i dont know if i agree. I experienced about a month of pure happiness (despite being on anti depressants) and elation, i wanted to speak to everyone and anyone, i laughed all the time, constantly made jokes, wanting to start up exercising and eating healthy and felt motivated, while also going on loads of dates (unlike me!) and being really carefree and telling them too much information about my life. I had amazing self esteem, i felt like i was IT! pretty, confident, clever etc. but i usually have low self esteem so it was strange. I also spent nearly all of my student finance going out and drinking and online shopping leaving nothing left for bills! at the time i didnt care. so as i say this went on for about a month maybe a bit longer. then ive had 2 months of utter depression and suicidal thoughts, not wanting to see anyone or do anything, with a few 'neutral' or 'fine' days in between. but thats it, i havent experienced any more of the 'high' days since, just that 1 or 2 months. I thought people with bipolar generally experienced a lot more mood switching? Or is it different with each person? also to add, in the past 3 weeks i have out of nowhere developed awful anxiety. im constantly worrying and feel nervous and fearful for no reason, and any little noise makes me have a mini panic attack! i closed the door behind me today and it blew a bit of paper and i nearly fell over with fear! i also stepped on a lighter and screamed! what is with that? i cant sleep at night because i worry so much as feel uneasy. so its like ive had 4 different moods, high moods, depression, anxiety and neutral. any one else experience anything like this? and does it sound like bipolar? obviously not expecting any sort of diagnosis just an insight really or any advice. i have been waiting 3 weeks to see someone since being referred. sorry if none of this makes sense my head is a bit muffled!
thanks for reading
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