For the last 6 months I have really been cascading, not managing my bipolar, letting it spin out of control when it got out of control, and just chalking it up to being bipolar. Not good.

This lead to extreme anxiety, extreme elation and elevated moods, workaholism, hyper sexuality, brief phases of debilitating depression, abuse of alcohol and occasionally other drugs, picking up smoking again, abysmal diet, lots of sleeplessness, irritability, problems in my relationship, emotional distance/the need to isolate... that is the short list.

But I am getting back on top again. I travel a lot, and I don't have any travel coming up, and I think that is part of what makes me think I can do it. But I started today, and I am starting by changing my diet, stopping drinking, stopping smoking and all other drugs, limiting sugar entirely, sleep management, and trying to return to meditation and exercise. I'll also be back here.

It is time for me to try not to let bipolar run my life and just throw my hands up cuz I am bipolar. I need to take charge of things again.

I always write in here when things are not good, just wanted to say that I am doing good and I am going to need y'alls help to keep it up!
Thanks for being there all of you!
Soon...
MT