Two of the yearly Christmas parties are upon me and i am so thrilled that i am doing so much better than this time last year. My drop-in party was yesterday. Last year i was sick with depression, desperate, my sleep was all messed up and things were going badly with my puppy.

This year i feel content, sleeping well, things going well with my pet -- now an adult dog and so much easier. I feel happy to skip the parties this year and spend quiet time at home. I feel so grateful that i have the freedom to do this -- no obligations to a partner or family.

I feel hopeful that the holidays will pass with ease. My suicide attempts have been in January a couple times. I am hopeful i will get thru that dreariest of months without incident.