Me: 18 year old girl with PTSD, Borderline personality disorder, seasonal depression. Is an artist, poet, abstract thinker, college student, full time seasonal job.
Him: 20 year old man with seasonal depression. Is a musician, kinda abstract thinker, part time job.

We've been together for just over a year now. With a one month break from early September to October.
I just don't feel the same anymore
I feel stuck with him almost
It'd kill him if I left him and I think it'd kill me too, but I don't even know anymore.
We live 98 miles apart and I typically see him every weekend. But when I'm not with him I forget he exists and I just feel numb toward him (and everything else right now) but he was the one thing I NEVER felt numb toward before. Help?Advice? Anything to help me save this?