So this evening I was talking with my wife about - I honestly don't recall - nothing important just small talk.
I made a comment though about "Honesty being the best policy" and she really laughed at that so I asked curiously "What does that mean?" referring to her laughter.
Basically she said that something like an "accidental one night stand" - I wouldn't tell you about it because it would ruin our relationship!
I mentioned that a one night stand is very intentional and couldn't have happened by accident - that's how I feel. I also pointed out that if your primary relationship in your life was put on the backburner for a little bit of fun with someone else theres a much larger problem.
So anyway I started asking little questions like "So If I.." whatever with another woman, you wouldn't want to know?
She then went on about the cost of couples therapy and how expensive it would be and she wouldn't want to pay for it for a "stupid mistake I made".
This conversation happened on my lunch break while at work - More often than not, I go home on my break as I don't live too far away and it's convenient - I get to spend time w/my kid and my wife.
I couldn't help but wonder after I went back to work - Did she possibly have a "one night stand" at some point?
I know we've been working through some issues with communication - it almost seems like we don't talk much anymore and the lack of intimacy - well it's there too.
So I couldn't help but ask her a bit more about it when I got home. She knew then her comments bothered me a bit and honestly they did. If that's really how she feels - Thats a bit concerning - even if there is nothing to hide.
I by no means made any accusations, just to be clear!
I tried to get back into the convo we had earlier by asking what we were talking about before I made my honesty is the best policy comment. She didn't recall and neither did I so it must not have been important and it wasn't about relationships. She asked me if I thought she may be hiding something - I really haven't considered it - so I told her no and she shifted the convo to our kid...but honestly after that it kind of makes me wonder.
What would drive her to bring this up? Seemingly out of nowhere?
Just straight up asking her might be a little out there but it's on my mind now. Should I NOT talk about it because there could be repercussions to our relationship? Clearly I've got a trust issue - never did before tonight. Help!
What should I do?
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