I know how it is to need IP and not want to go there. The whole idea used to scare the hell out of me and I probably should have gone inpatient on more than one occasion, but I refused. Then in late October I got so sick that I couldn't stand myself anymore---I was depressed, irritable, agitated, and suicidal. I'd sworn I'd never sign myself into a mental health facility, but I was so relieved when I did it because I knew I'd be safe.

I was lucky, my IP experience was good, but I know that not all psych wards are like mine was. I don't know if you've ever been in one as a patient, but if you haven't, try not to pre-judge it and assume that it will be bad. Would the facility be one that you've worked in before? Maybe you could go to a different hospital if you don't like that one. I don't know what the answer is, but I will say this: by the time you're even questioning whether you should go in, it's time to go.

Wishing you the best. Get well soon!