I don't know... sometimes we'll be talking in session, and I just look at him... the way he is staring at me, looking all engaged.... and I just can't take it. Like I can't even look at him anymore because the feeling is just too strong. And I am interested in wanting him to think I'm attractive. Last session I was almost there... I almost yelled at him for looking at me like that because it's too much... but I guess I wasn't ready yet because it didn't come out. I closed my eyes. I turned away from him.

I love that he looks at me that way.
I hate that he looks at me that way.