Sounds to me,like you should be assessed for bipolar disorder, since the anti-depressants seem to trigger what sounds like mania in you.

And I've heard that the depression crashes that follow mania can be severe.

Are you seeing a psychiatrist or a family Dr. If you're not seeing a psychiatrist I'd ask for a referral to one.

Tell them bipolar has been suggested - maybe show them a copy of your post since it explains your responses to medication really well, and then ask about mood stabilizers.

Good luck.

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