I got off this site because I wanted to move forward and not dwell on negative. I tried to write once before and it seemed to have saves the beginning of what I was writing.

I felt better and I tried to move on being with positive thinking and working on bring grateful...but now, I am in dark dark place again.

So am back here.

This fight or struggle or whatever it is called is very hard. I keep falling.

It is was so bad that I called hotline again. I'm not going to do anything to myself as I do not know what happens and it might be worse than here.

I know that I have roof over my head and am working harder than I have ever rid in my life and making the least amount of money doing it...and am considered at poverty level.

I seem to attract guys that are something wrong and is attracted to me because there is something wrong with me.

My alarm went off so I need to get ready for work.

Just so down for days and nothing is lifting me up. So I am back here again.

Please please ....I just want it to stop !!!!