Lots of people do feel that way.

As far as treatment options with no psychiatrist I would try.

Exercise if you can manage it.
Meditation
Supplements
5HTP
L Methyl Folate
B vitamins
SamE
Vitamin D
Fish oil
St. John's wort
All safe but if you are taking any meds you should check for interactions.

If you go on antidepressants a few you shouldn't take.

After 30 years if it were me I would try antidepressants and see some how some way. The exact percentage of people they help is kind of unknown. It like 50/50 of finding one that works. It could change your life but it can be a messy process finding one that works and side effects and all that. If your at the end of your rope and thirty years.

I have suffered as well for 30 years. Mine is cyclical so I have good periods but the bad ones are very disruptive as you know. In the last year I have found a med that has worked better than anything. Fetzima . It could quit working.

It would have a huge negative impact on your daughter if you left her. It has been the only thing that stopped me in the past is my daughter. She needs me and how could I leave. Trying to figure out how to manage my life given the fact of depression. Not fun.

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