So I've been catching up on roll call. I fought to get a bpd diagnosis. I had read a lot of books on Marilyn Monroe and related to her and thought I had bpd. I don't, I do think I have some traits, but it's bc of all the abuses I went through.

I don't really like this new therapist. She just annoys me. I feel like I have more knowledge of just life in general than her. I'm gonna give it 2 more sessions then ask for a different one. Ugh, idk She'll know and it will be awkward. Any advice? I would like to try and make it work, but she's just so nervous it makes me not trust her.

I'm irritable, my son keeps bugging me. I was supposed to call and do a review and bc I've been so depressed I hadn't. So I called 2 times last week and was on hold for like 2 hours and I just called and was on hold again for 2 hours. I hung up bc they stop doing the reviews at 2. I hate this depression, and I don't see any way of getting through it other than just waiting it out. I hope I get disability and have some money so I can get driving. That would help me not isolate so much....Ugh.