Actually, it is my own judgement that these thoughts (some of them) that help to get me there are inappropriate as I am disturbed that I have them. I have a conflict within myself in this regard. My perception is that, although the thoughts I feel are wrong, they are merely no more than a thought and therefore really hurt noone. So until I figure why, how, how much or if they truly are wrong and then what to do about it, I will accept them for what they provide.