Yes, I still feel that way sometimes...I'm not really sure why? I know that it was a serious issue for my marriage. When I was seeking treatment I realized how much I just wanted to be hugged. When I asked my wife if when she came to visit if she could give me a hug - I kind of got a blank look. Because I pulled away in the past - she was basically telling me too late now.

I didn't want to feel dependant on her (I think). I don't know if it is has to do with the fact that I fidget a lot. Does your husband always bounce a leg or have something in his hands? Anyway, hugs felt so confining - I needed to be moving.

Sad now...one of the things I want most is a hug from someone who accepts me.

Not sure that will help you - but thinking about it has given me a chance to look at this in me.