hi Lisa,

first of all, I'm so glad to hear you were able to attend your daughter's dance competition!

I can relate to your situation...it seems that for some 'big things' I can get through it, but the only place I feel safe enough to let down and let go of the built up anxiety is at home, what I've tried to do is to schedule some intentional 'let down' time after things, to be more loving to myself...

I've also come to recognize that when I do those big things there is big anxiety let down, small things just a small bit. does that make sense? I guess I'm trying to say I'm finding when I reset my expectations it's more helpful than thinking recovery is a one way journey out, which for me hasn't been realistic.

I had a really rough winter, and am climbing out of a deep depression, went on new meds and everythying, but I do find the anixety is worse and worse. Right now I can't get out to the back yard Grrrr, I have to plant some containers with annuals, and I'd like to do it while the kids are in school, but I can't seem to function here at home when I'm by myself. Nor can I seem to get to the post office! (have only old rate stamps and I have bills to pay!)

[[ hugs ]]]

Gabby