Hi,

Sorry to be so late in responding to this thread.

I don't think you are crazy, I think definitely what you describe was abuse. Period, even if nothing else happened and I think it's possible that more did happen. We tend to block out unpleasant things from our minds and memory.

Sometimes we can get overwhelmed with thoughts and memories when we give up one kind of coping (bulimia for instance) and we don't yet have a new, healthier type of coping to rely on.

If I were you, I'd try to work in therapy on developing grounding and calming skills. I wouldn't try to talk about the incidents... that is destabilizing and right now you need to sloooow everything down.

At many points in therapy, I didn't WANT to slow down, because I felt like I was on a scavenger hunt for memories... and while I was overwhlemed, I felt like at least I was getting "to the root of things". In retrospect, I wish I had slowed down, as the internal chaos impacted badly on my family and social life. But that is a personal decision... I just want to suggest to you that you CAN slow down, if you wish -- my therapist at the time kept encouraging me to keep things unsettled and I felt worse and worse.

Congrats on your recovery from bulimia and your courage in seeking help and committing to counseling!

((((((storm))))))

L