I know how it feels. Your post made me not feel quite so alone because I can relate to everything you are saying. I am looking for the same answers.

I don't know how to help, but I know how painful it is to feel trapped in your own life and in a situation that seems irreparable and hopeless. It is so hard to talk to people about it when no one can do anything to fix it. Working to get meds right on top of everything is a long grueling process.

I hope you feel better even just for a few hours.

I am reminding myself to be patient and learn resilience. It's all we can do.