i am so sorry this happened to you. i have never been big on drugs but i partake occasionally when i go to a music festival but i always make sure i know what i am taking because of my mental health issues and i am terrified of having a bad trip. i make sure i have people with me who can take care of me if anything goes wrong and that they know where my antianxiety meds are if i need them and cant think to get them myself. but mostly, i dont do drugs for this very reason. it just isnt worth the risk.