Apparently, one of my friends really doesn't want to be my friend. She never has actually said anything to me, but she implies it. Ignoring me when I see her in the halls. Ignore my questions. Just doesn't talk to me. Takes forever to respond to my texts(& she is always on her phone.). It just hurts, a lot. Heck, I planned a Christmas party this Friday, & I told her one of my friends [hers to], might not be able to sleepover. She then told me "I think I'll just go home too.But, if others are coming, I'll stay."Yeah, I their are times where I'll prank her,I wouldn't even call it pranking, just joking around with her. So, that could be it. But...other do that too her to.

What I do think it is,is that I decided to tell her about my Depression.At first, when I first told her, she was considered,& seemed to care. After that? She was totally rude about it. She was like "You have food, family, friends, a house, & a great life! Why are depressed? Be happy, because there is no reason to feel this way!"

Ugh. It just... makes me want to end my life. She's the reason why I handbag tried it yet. Suicide seems SO reasonable right now. I feel like no one gives a **** about,& that they'd care less if I killed myself.... If only I had something more the OD, that'd be awesome.