Hi Yis.... I really liked your post!!! I think you are really special. I love the way you think. You are smart and open and that is SO SO wonderful.
If a girl does not see how special you are.....I say Move ON! Any woman with half a mind would know that a man that is secure, open minded and cares about himself is worth the effort.
You need to find a woman that is secure and knows how much she is worth and that will be your mate.
Don't know I agree about the casual sex thing, (please be safe) but hey , you don't want to marry a woman that will not have the same interests as you!!!!
Do not ever settle. You will find someone who is open minded, confident, willing to love and give and care about herself and others. Do not give up on Love EVER!!!!!
All my best thoughts are with you