It is a year later pretty much. I would help you but I wouldn't exactly know what to tell you. All I can say is that if you are biologically attracted to the opposite sex then you are not a lesbian or bisexual. I'm not sure how it works for women because I am a guy. I struggle with this as well. I've been straight my entire life so it doesn't make any sense that my body would just automatically turn "gay". I know that trying to fight irrelevant things just makes it worse though. What I've come to realize is that if we keep repeating what initially started these thoughts and obsessions in the first place then we will keep that habit forever until we ultimately prove to ourselves that we are not like this and ultimately get rid of the fear. I'm starting to come to terms that OCD may be a spiritual problem. I don't know for sure though. Before I developed this I was a very spiritually strong person and strong willed. I'm gonna get passed this thing I don't give a damn how hard it is. I've had many periods where I knew for a fact that I was reassured and thought that I didn't have OCD anymore. This is proof that we really don't want to do these things, we've basically taught ourselves a habit unintentionally. I have to fix my heart and my spirit. They are both broken. Kindness and courage go a long way. I'm thinking about hiring an OCD coach that has actually been through this thing to help. I mean, to be honest, even if we were "lesbian" or "gay" it doesn't mean that we have to go around thinking about it 24/7. I mean I come from a background of sports, military, and being a pretty masculine guy (not trying to brag, just trying to make a point). OCD is basically just the complete opposite of who you truly are.