Hello everyone,

I have never had an account on a psych forum but I have read a few posts on here. I guess I'm just looking for support and what to do in regards to my sexual fetish. It is too embarrassing for me to ever tell anyone that actually knows me. I feel so lonely and different at times. My boyfriend of three years has no idea that I'm not thinking of him during sex/climaxing but rather my fetish. I am a 20 year old, active, physically attractive, 5'7' woman with C-cup breast implants and long black hair(not saying this to be cocky I have very low self esteem, but to show that you never know who people really are)and people do not think I have any problems. This is a secret I will probably never tell anyone in person. I cannot describe how nice it feels to write about it because up until now all of these thoughts have been in my head. My sexual fetish is tight white underwear humiliation. When my boyfriend goes down on me I picture a woman or man being somewhere in public in tight white underwear. I can remember from a very early age that this was what turned me on. Kissing, touching, and sex barley does anything for me unless I incorporate the underwear humiliation into my thoughts. The idea of being seen in tight white underwear in public gets me so excited. I have masturbated to and enjoy pantsings, public urination in underwear, the thought of a man forcefully taking off my pants to expose my white virgin undies, underwear sex, ect. Bottom line is I feel so wrong after I orgasm to these thoughts but I cannot help it. It has always been a part of me. I know the whole white underwear thing is common for gay men but I am interested in men.Any thoughts?