I know I shouldnt need benzos to be able to talk to people, but it felt like the anxiety had reached the point where things like school and work became extremely frustrating. I had a moment where I was going to buy the drugs when I realized I may be doing something wrong.. but I decided to go ahead with it anyway...

She did say she doesnt do therapy with people under the influence.. I wouldnt be opposed to not taking them the day of therapy but I think I may have burned this bridge.

It's just hard to juggle really practical responsibilities like being able to work without being in a state of panic or go to school without looking like your walking through a minefield, with also trying to work on yourself.