So I've always have had anxiety. When I was really little it was getting wet by rain. If I just got a little wet then I would freak out and have to change outfits. Then it was the fear of glitter. If got glitter on me I would have to wash my hand asap. But recently I’ve been have a fear of losing my memory.
It been so bad that I’ve missed a heck load of school which isn’t good. I feel hopeless. Like “hey what’s the point of doing anything if I’m just gonna forget it" It was getting really bad, not eating, losing sleep. So my mom took me to the Dr. My Dr told me the anxiety was causing my loss of memory and gave me some breathing exercises and sent me home. Then one day the anxiety was so bad that I went to the hospital. They gave me a pill ( I forget what it was called) to clam me down and it helped. Then they sent me home.Then one day after my mom called a bunch of places to see what they can can help we found a neurologist. I went to her and my mom had mentioned that my Grandma that I was very close with passed away October 6th. She then said she thought that maybe the loss of my Grandma was causing the anxiety. She then gave me Zolaf and Zanex. I felt very sick on the Zolaf and was going through withdraws after only being on it for 2 weeks. I went to my school phycolagist and he said the same thing, that it was grief that was causing the memory and that when the greiving is over i will start to remember stuff.I’m going to a psychiatrist on December 19 and hopefully she will help. I feel like the days are moving faster then I can process them and I can’t do anything about it. I need help I want to feel happy again