I think I'm worried more because I'm a little confused; as one side of me is saying "get that thing out of here", the other side has it clenched to her body saying "that's my letter, don't touch it!" But I know in truth she's saying "that's my therapist and you can't push her away."

I need her to be away, so badly. If I keep the letter I'm giving into this relationship and giving her more power than I can handle letting go of. If I give her the letter I'm letting both her and myself know that I'm not going to open up and allow myself to want or depend on her.

I feel so stuck, either way some part of me is uncomfortable and sad. Which do I listen to?