I could have written this! I tend to think my feelings are ridiculous and just told her last session that I'm embarrassed because I shouldn't have these needs. She asked "because you're an adult" and I said yes. She said if we didn't get them filled when we were young, they will come out as an adult and don't adults have needs too? I was raised to be strong, not show emotions, etc. And, I go through stages of feeling I should be over it. I also go through pushing her away so I don't care as much.

And, I can be fine in my session but know deep down something bothered me but can't figure it out. Then, I leave the session and 5 minutes later I'm a mess and know what the problem was. I separate from my feeling and have a hard time discussing them or even having words for them. So, then the next 2-3 days are hard until I start picking her apart and thinking how ridiculous the whole process is.